?

Log in

Death · to · Love


Life Sucks

Recent Entries · Archive · Friends · Profile

* * *
Well today I decided to post a buletin after two long years. Wow! Not sure what to say...
Current Mood:
complacent complacent
* * *
I made a 96 on my paper for Ms.Drake. I'm dissapointed. The only thing that kept me from making a 100 is one stupid sentence that I corrected yesterday but I forgot to change it when I retyped my final copy. GRR! Oh well. Ms. Drake said I still made the highest grade but it just bugs me to know that I could have made a 100 and didn't ; all because I am absent minded. Woot! College is starting to get on my nerves. Mrs.Ellis is the most ignorant teacher I have ever had and just my luck, I have her as a teacher for two of my classes.
* * *
Well. I somewhat feel acomplished. Yesterday I hung up posters for the blood drive. I plan to give blood myself this year now that I am old enough. Also I'm talking to someone. Step up for Laura in the affect of moving on. He seems like a really nice guy but yet again they all seem nice at first. We'll just see what happens. Yesterday I waited on Katie to get out for lunch. We left school and went to eat chinese. We both ate till we got sick. I don't care. I was starving. Anywhoos. We left and were on our way home when I decided to take the backway to my house. I don't know why but I did. Me and Katie saw the graveyard where Tiffany was buried and I pulled in. Where to start looking? Katie pointed out the office so we went and asked the front office where to look. She marked a map for us and we found it no problem. The state was ptiful. It looked like no one had been there in years. I wiped off the cut grass and poured the nasty water out of the vase and tried my best to fix the flowers. Tiffany needs new flowers. I plan to get new ones with the money I make tonight from babysitting. Katie and I will go back soon to fix the place up. I can't believe it will have been 4 years this year. Has it really been that long? "This still doesn't seem real to me" is what I said to Katie. She was just about to say the same thing. I get depressed looking at her grave. Has everyone forgotten? Anyway if anyone wants to join us when we go back you are welcome to come. I'm sure Tiffany would appreciate it.
Current Location:
Morganton
Current Mood:
accomplished accomplished
* * *
I went and saw Marissa yesterday at the hospital. I brought her a rose and a balloon. She looked like she felt really bad. Her baby is sooo cute. I held him for a while. I was going to go see her today but I had to babysit again today. GAWD Jesus I'm going to crack if I have to watch her much longer!!! On a happier note I'm at Katie's house and we are going out in a little while. I'm not sure what we are gonna do yet but that's ok.
Current Mood:
contemplative contemplative
* * *
Well I havn't updated in what seems like years. Oh well. Summer completly sucks. This one anyway. My parents have finally lost it. I going to soon if something doesn't happen. Yesterday I woke up with plans to stab myself. Luckily I turned on the tv first. Ghost World was on so I was happy for about 2 hours, although commercials piss me off. Sometimes I hate tv. It's useless. I have been babysitting Brittany since Monday and this insanity doesn't end until friday. A whole week with that whiney little bitch and the worst part is that I don't even get paid. I should be rich by now. I hate my parents...SOOO MUCH!!! They better enjoy my company now because as soon as I get out of college my ass is moving and NEVER coming back. I'm going to disapear from them and never speak to them again. I'll still keep in touch with my friends though.
Current Mood:
distressed distressed
* * *
* * *
I'm up...I'm bored...and I'm alone...Woot.
* * *
Well I havn't updated in a LONG time. It's spring break and nothing is happening. I kinda miss being a kid. I miss when I was at Nebo and I didn't have anything to worry about. I just had my friends. I miss being around my old friends all the time. I miss being around Elizabeth, Michael, Adam, and Katie. *sigh* Sometimes change REALLY sucks. Oh well. Thats life. I need a friends reunion?
Current Mood:
contemplative contemplative
Current Music:
Dresden Dolls
* * *
Well this weekend has been pretty boring. I went shopping this morning...thats about it. I finished reading the 6th Harry Potter book...I'm a dork I know! I hated the ending. Well, not really hated but I was disapointed. Oh well. I have had the strange erge to start drawing again. I feel so good when I draw. I'm so out of practice! The end of the semester is coming up and I'm really dreading it. I don't like my classes for next semester. There goes my A/B honors. I suck at math. Blah Blah Blah! I know I'm getting boring.
* * *
Well today has been an interesting Friday the 13th. Thats all I have to say. Although it was great to see Michael Smith again. I almost didn't recognize him at first when he yelled my name but then it clicked and I ran and hugged him around the neck. I've missed that kid.
* * *
Betrayed

Just try and tell me you don't care,
as you waste my time again.
Why did you bother me for hours?
If nothing mattered to you?

Because beyond the sickness there is life,
bound now in chains self imposed,
but somewhere inside, you knew you were wrong,
lashed out at me from untold desperation.

Betrayed yourself, ruined something pure,
all that surrounds you brought you down
Nothing I can do if you don't reach for help,
across this trench I cannot reach your soul.

* * *
* * *

Previous